Shallow Things!

Seems to me like someone has been posting an entry every single day of the week. I've done more posts in the last three months than last two years and I wonder why. Is it the boredom? Is it the lack of a proper life? Is it the depression? Is it because there is just so much time on hand? Is it the increased need to procrastinate? Is it the availability of a computer? Is it that I have things to say now (more so than before)?

I can't seem to focus on this computer screen. Blindness happen? I just don't know anymore.

I tried my best to pull myself out of this mild-depression I've induced in myself the past few days. It did work for .. four hours .. but now it's back to square one. I hate how sensitive I get- taking offence in everything people say and do. Everything becomes about me, and everything I say and do becomes about me (note the number of I's in this very entry). I need someone to talk to .. but I don't want to talk to anyone, because what I'll say wouldn't make any sense to others and it'd just be a burden for them. I wish people would call and find out what's wrong.

-Happy Tone-

I went to the Spiderman 3 premier last night (after the fmaily went out for kebabs in Lakemba) and my sibling and I both agree, that we like it. I have a feeling most people (atleast those who are excited about Venom) would probably feel that his (Venom's) full form didn't get as much attention it deserved (why is Venom so hyped up anyway?). That's what happens when you cram in three nemesis (I guess technically four) in just two and half hours. It gets difficult and .. well .. we know that you can't make everyone happy. It was heartbreaking to see Harry dead at the end of the movie though. What I really liked was the pace. It didn't linger on and though sometimes things seem to pace a tad bit too quick (almost overwhelmingly), after things sink in (to your brain and bones) that's actually a good thing (the pace). I had my doubts, that this part will be a thingy where we'd see too much romance and character development and all that high-thought things and not enough action ... well to put it another way, I didn't think the director would be able to balance things the way he has (I loved the balance .. I like balance .. eventually), especially given the fact he's chosen to bring out quite a few things- old strings and new installments (not just one new development, but several). When someone has limited time-frame (rather if I had a limited time-frame) I would tend to either tap into the old strings and be done with that OR forget the old stuff completely and focus on the new events. (Shows how much I know). But yeah, I liked it. Entertaining yet not completely brainless (which you would except from a superhero film - like Ghost Rider - which was the shittiest piece of crap I've seen and worse, paid money to see). It was quite fun actually, because we were all (or most) uni students there (it was a charity premier night thingy, so we had the best seats on the upstairs stall of Ritz - which I must say is .. fancier than the poor folks down below .. I know because I know Ritz like my second home) and after seeing our 'new-turned-emo-hero' (Peter, after he slowly gets infected with Venom), we laughed out so hard (at one point I was all flustered, because I have a thing for .. emo-white-boys (if they also happen to be in a black shirt-black dinner jacket combo) - to which the sibling said .. 'Well it doesn't take much to get you flustered in the first place'), even when the scene was clearly a very serious one. I think I'll stop rambling on about Spiderman now. I do think Dunst is ugly though.

Now to watch a movie where I'll cry my guts out .. maybe then I can get this depression out of my system. What else can you do when you feel so trapped that the only way you know how to get out of it by drowning yourself somewhere. (I always have this feeling that if I don't die of natural cause (age), I'll drown to death- which doesn't make any sense because although I can't swim- I absolutely love water. I love cruises and ships and ferries and .. the harbour .. the only substantial thing that Sydney has to offer and for which I love the city- is primarily- water).

Mmm .. seeing Spiderman (and just when I thought I'd stop rambling) reminded me that I have always wanted to go a Jazz bar (on a date .. I have a list of places I want to go on dates .. for some reason .. maybe that's what people do .. rather, when they can't do - they make lists). I know Asif (uncle-in-law? do such term exist?) is into jazz, maybe he will take me on a date someday. I wanted to play the saxophone when I was 12 and I wonder why I never did.

Is it me .. or do my sentences seem so .. incoherent? Structure is important .. be it a sentence .. or life .. otherwise you are often misunderstood, and there isn't a worse feeling in the world than when you're misunderstood by your loved ones (it's understandable when they don't understand you .. that can be coped with .. but .. misunderstanding- missing the point, the intention is a different thing altogether).