Senseless in the City!

Inside I'm panicked. But nothing a good determination can't fix (and I've been trying that for the last three weeks). Emotional dependency is worse than drug dependency methinks, although, the pot-heads can tell me better.

The problem is day-time dreams. The sort of dreams that come to your (sub)conscience head only after you resume back to bed at 8 in the morning. But they are by no means- day-dreaming- when you sit/lie down idly and fantasize about rubbing all sorts of food products on Daniel Craig and then .. .. maybe I shouldn't specify exactly what it is that I idly fantasize about. I'm talking about the proper 'I'm dreaming' - I'm in the middle of my REM sleep and I'm dreaming in black and white.

So anyway, this 'morning-dream' of mine (and I'm having quite a lot these days, almost one everyday, which tells me I should stop the sort of sleep life-cycle I'm leading) wasn't weird. In some sense, yes .. because it was situated at Coles (where I work) and instead of operating the check out registers- we were putting together Christmas gift packs (assortment of puzzle games, Bart Simpson comic books and pens etc). Then at one point (within an hour of my four hour shift) we were finished for the day and I happen to go to the back to see what things I can save for myself and buy later (the whole place looked like my grandmother's house in Dhaka with some modifications of course). After a massive search I came out to the main area and saw my dad sitting on bed, getting his palm read by some guy (he was someone close to my dad I think, can't remember). I asked if he could read my future - my future career, money, love etc. I still remember what he said - in my dream I remember telling myself- well he knows what you're like so telling you what you want to here. (oh! they were great things about the sort of person I really want to be known as and the current state of things with love life).

Anyway, I had a point to this story and I have just lost it. I think the point should be .. you-are-an-obnoxious-self-centred-hater (as in me). Oh well. The most fascinating thing was I was given a black leather bound book (I saw the name clearly, but now can't remember) and was told to read a verse - oh how movie-like!

I really do want to go see a palmist or a tarot card reader person- mmm .. should add that to some sort of a list. (or instead of lists, just go ahead and do it). Here's today's horoscope for Libra:

' The Moon moves through your relationship sector today, triggering a few emotional buttons and heightening your reactions. This is all part of a process that is preparing you for Mars' arrival mid week. It's the things that this draws your attention to that act as a trailer for the main event, with a need to pay attention. Avoid blowing things out of proportion, but don't stick your head in the sand either. '

I have no idea what in the hell the above thing means.