Where soul meets body!

Some things need to be perfect. When I want a sandwich in the morning, I must have a sandwich or I won't eat anything for breakfast. That's the reason I didn't have breakfast this morning (also I was running late for the lab test I bombed so gracefully). Some things need to be perfect but they hardly ever are .. first kiss .. first proper date (which I have yet to experience, because nothing ever matched up with my definition of a 'proper-date'). I won't buy any clothes that have anything I think is ugly (there was this dress thing, everything was perfect .. but the stones they used for the flowers on the border of the skirt was big and gaudy and yellow .. bye bye dress). I can't start my assignments unless I have that perfect opening sentence. I can't do a lot of things (I think I put up a list a long long time ago). I think I drive/used to drive my parents crazy because I'd hardly ever like anything and I would never clearly say that I hated it. It's actually quite annoying- when the sibling does the same thing. Sometimes she cries and you ask her what's wrong .. all she does is just shed tears .. and nothing else .. no complaint .. no clear indication about the actual problem .. the more you insist the more she freezes up .. she gets all stiff and cries even more .... it gets frustrating and all you want to do is hit her head against a wall .... I'm smarter now though .. I brush it off and she comes and tells me later on.

This summer I took a stupid course on effective communication and one thing that'll stay with me (something I'd like to implement but I have my doubts) is this :
'When you _____, I feel _____, so I think you should ______.
For example, 'When you started watching BBC out of nowhere and started ignoring and avoiding, I felt depressed and hurt and inadequate and frankly the hurt was more gigantic than the annoyance you might have felt.' OR 'When you slapped me, I was stunned but I'll forgive you for never saying sorry, I know how you are and you show love through sharing your online porn experience.' TRY IT AT HOME TODAY AND WATCH THE MAGIC!!

Hell, sometimes I want to slap myself. I am not uptight, I'm just a romantic .. so please give me a break. It hurts to hear things like that. It hurts even more to hear all the reasons behind who I should date, why the hell can't people take their own advise? Don't tell me to date a non-passionate (because we'd have so much things in common) when it's you who needs to be with someone passionate .. go date someone like that yourself, no one is stopping you.

This one thing always always makes me smile .. when the bus driver speeds like crazy because there's no one waiting in the next stop. It's kind of refreshing. It made me laugh out loud this morning. (and a toddler smiled at me today .. for some reason, toddlers and younger babies can't stand the sight of me .. but this one did).

And I do not like the smell of freshly cut grass. I can't even tell if they smell.

Someday I would like to turn this blog into a political one .. as soon as I locate my exact feelings regarding this area.

I haven't seen Gavin for so long .. I mean .. that's timing for you .. I missed out on him by one month or more precisely before he moved to that other place I should have made my move to secure a .. blaah .. no cry over spilt soup.

' I do believe it's true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
And if the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too '

I hate Gibbard.

I totally forgot .. I borrowed 'Pardon me, you're stepping on my eyeball' yesterday. I shall read it now.

Today is Friday the 13th .. be aware.